“Have you been here before?” “Oh yes.”
The
deja vue was never going to be easy. But surely the nurse should have known I
had visited the breast clinic on many occasions before?
Here I was, once more, sat within the same
four white walls, on the same bright blue chair, watching the same hands tick
on the clock, the same blue door (made me smile, it was almost the same colour
as my recently painted hen house!). The blinds were shutting out the sunshine
and blue sky just as they had done on results day last year, so I took the
liberty of opening them just enough that I could see the sky reflected in the
wall mirror opposite me. The familiar box of tissues sat on the desk in readiness
for all those tears that are shed in this room, when lives are turned upside
down.
“What can we do for you?” had she not read
the correspondence or notes? So I read from my list, giving her a copy for the
file just to be sure that nothing got missed.
It was all very swift with no time for
questions. Didn’t anyone want to check that my iron count was back to normal, no
blood test nor a check of my blood pressure? What would happen if gynaecology find
out that it is the Tamoxifen effecting my menstruation? (Although not common,
Tamoxifen can cause thickening of the endometrium and hence problems with
menstruation). So, after weeks of waiting I was no further forward other than
to now be waiting for another appointment to see the gynaecologist. Why I could
not just have been referred directly to gynaecology in the first place I do not
know.
I drew strength from last week’s forum and
all those other ladies who have also experienced this matter of fact, less than
satisfactory treatment.
My consultant said she would arrange my
annual mammogram for when it is due in June, gosh, that came round quick, a
year in June since this journey began. Well for what it’s worth anyway, given that the
first mammogram only picked up an unclear fog and nothing that they were too
concerned about!
For now I put the whole thing out of my head
as best I can, managing my time table such that I am close to home during my
period. The gynaecology appointment is bound to come through for when I am on
holiday in June or July!
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